{"id":331,"date":"2013-12-04T13:41:19","date_gmt":"2013-12-04T21:41:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.maureeneppstein.com\/mve_journal\/?p=331"},"modified":"2013-12-04T17:46:36","modified_gmt":"2013-12-05T01:46:36","slug":"texts","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.maureeneppstein.com\/mve_journal\/?p=331","title":{"rendered":"Texts"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Searoad<\/em>, a story collection by Ursula K. LeGuin<\/a>, has a permanent place on my bedside table. It\u2019s there because every now and then I need to reread a certain story. A very short story, less than three pages, it is titled \u201cTexts,\u201d and tells of an older woman who, bombarded by messages and calls to action, retreats to the coastal Oregon village of Klatsand for a month-long winter break. As she walks on the deserted beach, she notices that the waves have left messages in the lines of foam, messages she can almost decipher. The laciness of the foam leads her to speculate that crochet work and lace might also be legible. In a handmade lace collar she reads a message that seems directed to her: \u201cmy soul must go, my soul must go \u2026 sister, sister, light the light.\u201d There the story ends, with the woman not knowing \u201cwhat she was to do, or how she was to do it.\u201d<\/p>\n

I think of this oddly moving little story every time I walk on Ten Mile Beach, as I did last Sunday. The receding waves left undulating lines of bubbles, iridescent in the hazy sunlight, that popped to form patterns of foam. Scattered across the beach were strands of bull kelp, dried into coils and loops that lay like a cursive script on the sand.<\/p>\n

Yesterday, when the wind was brisk and the sea streaked with white caps, I remembered an interview I did for the Mendocino Art Center<\/a> magazine. It was part of a series I wrote on artists who helped found the art center in the 1960s. By the time I met Jim Bertram in the early 2000s, he was senile and nonverbal, so I had to rely on material in the art center archives for information about his background and artistic vision. Nevertheless, Jim and I spent a wonderful afternoon together. I think a poem I wrote at the time sums it up:<\/p>\n

MESSAGES<\/strong><\/p>\n

For JB<\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u201cLine expresses the inner thought. It is a narrative of what we really want to tell each other but somehow can\u2019t seem to verbalize.\u201d<\/p>\n

– Jim Bertram<\/p>\n

\u00a0These bright spring days, when the wind<\/p>\n

scribbles its white calligraphy<\/p>\n

on a wash of aquamarine,<\/p>\n

I think of the artist in his studio<\/p>\n

upstairs of a weathered storefront<\/p>\n

overlooking Mendocino Bay.<\/p>\n

Sheet after curling sheet he showed me, canvas<\/p>\n

after canvas, covered with calligraphic forms<\/p>\n

that could have been words, but were not.<\/p>\n

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In our shared silence I understood his drift:<\/p>\n

how sometimes what matters most is inarticulate:<\/p>\n

like the line of spray from a lifting wave,<\/p>\n

the hand of an old man painting messages of love.<\/p>\n

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On my way downstairs from Jim\u2019s studio, I fell in love with one of his paintings, which now has a place of honor in my house. I smile when I read its message.<\/p>\n

\"Bertram<\/a>

Jim Bertram: Untitled, acrylic on canvas. Eppstein collection<\/p><\/div>\n

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